Terrified

Well let me just put it out there: IM PETRIFIED!!!!

I'm so scared to go home and have to face the "normal life" that is waiting out there.
I don't want to have to leave a place I have come to know as my home to go to a place that seems to far away, a place where positions and money are the deciding factor of if you are good enough.
A place that I used to call home and fit into so well.

Now I think of it as a place that is cold, materialistic and so very very dark.

But luckily for me I have a very bright light to lead me, His name is Jesus.
Even though sometimes it seems like he is so far from me and that he is nowhere to be found I know I can always rely on him.

Many times in the past week I have thought about what I'm gonna be doing with my life this year and I still honestly can't tell you. All I know is that I will try to live a life that is pleasing to my Father, not my father here on earth but one who is greater than him.

I hope that all of you, my friends, family and even those who I don't know will not be drawn into the cycle of "normal life" that the world provides for us, but that you would all rather go against the flow, swim upstream and not do what the world says is right.

With all my love and blessings

Disenchanted

1. Put Your iTunes on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write down the name of the song no matter how silly it sounds!
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS “Is this ok?” YOU SAY:
Numb-Linkin park
(I cant feel anything right now)

2. WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Two more years- bloc party
(give me some time and I will tell you)

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Crazy- Gnarls Barkley
(She must be totally nuts)

4. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
breaking the habit- Linkin park
(I gotta break peoples habits)

5. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Be Myself- The lighthouse Band
(Thats no maybe)

6. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Battle- Gang starr
(I like starting gang battles?)

7. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
King- Tree63
(UM???)

8. WHAT IS 2+2?
stop bein greedy- DMX
(Why do you keep asking me stupid questions?)

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Lose yourself-Eminem
(go get lost and I'll come find you)


10. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Untouchable-DMX
(No person touch her wrong or you in trouble)


11. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Pain Redefined- Disturbed
(I redefine the word pain)

12. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Too Much- Leeland
(2 many things I wanna be)

13. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Look thru my eyes- DMX
(Look though them and see for yourself)

14. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Hand that rocks the cradle- Big stan
(I always rock things)

15. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
La Grange- ZZ Top
(not 2 bad if you think bout it)

16. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Overdue- Tree63
(im prob gonna die when im very old)

17. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
What kind of love are you on- aerosmith
(To find out what love people are on?)

18. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Better than you- Metallica
(sorry people its out there now)

19. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
We're back- DMX
(we all back to take the challenge)

20. WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Places to go- 50 Cent
(I'll run out of places to go)


21. HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Go to sleep- eminem ft obie trice
(im gonna die in my sleep)


22. WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Reaching- leeland
(going deeper into the cookie jar was a bad idea)


23. WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
8 miles and running- Jay-Z and Freeway
(Idiots that run mini marathons)

24. WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Soldier- eminem
(soldiers going to war and dying)

25. WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Where the love lasts forever- hillsong
(yup I guess I will)

26. WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Sing for the moment- Eminem
(Singing for people at random moments)

27. DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Wish I were you- Patty smyth
(If I were you they wouldnt like me as much)

28. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
You and me- Plain white t's
(I'd change the relationship I have with you)


29. WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Stuck inside- The lighthouse Band
(the thing inside that wants to come out)

30. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Disenchanted- My chemical Romance

Welcome 2009

Hello friendly friend people.

Its so great that 2009 has finally rolled in.
Many of you have said that 2009 is gonna be a year of change, Change of your weight, change of wardrobe, change of personality etc etc...

But how many of us are willing to change our positions in Christ?
How willing are you to change your area of serving?
How about moving from the place you are comfortable to a place where you struggle?

How many of us are still serving in places that have become too comfortable?
Why is it that we cant move out of the place we are at now.

I will be coming home next weekend most probably.
I am looking forward to seeing you all very soon.

some funny quotes:
Jay Leno
Now there are more overweight people in America than average-weight people. So overweight people are now average… which means, you have met your New Year's resolution.

Joey Adams
May all your troubles last as long as your New Year's resolutions!

May 2009 be a year that is full of happiness, love, joy and that God blesses you richly.

Much Love and many blessings.

ps I will probably see you before I put another entry up